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“I’m not going to try it,” I said. “You’ll like it,” she argued. “I know I’ll like it,” I said. “That’s why I’m not going to try it.” “Try it just this once and I’ll never ask you to do it again.” That was a deal. I slipped back into the driver’s seat while Pat corn-rowed two neat lines of the silky white powder on the back of a plastic cassette tape cover. Fifteen hu “I’m not going to try it,” I said. “You’ll like it,” she argued. “I know I’ll like it,” I said. “That’s why I’m not going to try it.” “Try it just this once and I’ll never ask you to do it again.” That was a deal. I slipped back into the driver’s seat while Pat corn-rowed two neat lines of the silky white powder on the back of a plastic cassette tape cover. Fifteen hundred dollars every month, an abusive boyfriend, a molested child, a lost family, hotels for houses, a ruined leg, a gun to my head, a knife to my butt, a jail cell all my own. Black eyes, bruised days, broken hours. Looking back, it seems strange what I gave up to get my roommate off my back. It only took four seconds. *** In her debut memoir, Andrade tells of her years with cocaine and crystal methamphetamines—using, then selling—until all she had left of the life she wanted was a chalk outline and a pack of cigarettes. This is the story of her use and recovery, of the people who frustrated and inspired her, of her decision to leave the drug world. It is the story of her slow, often unsteady walk home.


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“I’m not going to try it,” I said. “You’ll like it,” she argued. “I know I’ll like it,” I said. “That’s why I’m not going to try it.” “Try it just this once and I’ll never ask you to do it again.” That was a deal. I slipped back into the driver’s seat while Pat corn-rowed two neat lines of the silky white powder on the back of a plastic cassette tape cover. Fifteen hu “I’m not going to try it,” I said. “You’ll like it,” she argued. “I know I’ll like it,” I said. “That’s why I’m not going to try it.” “Try it just this once and I’ll never ask you to do it again.” That was a deal. I slipped back into the driver’s seat while Pat corn-rowed two neat lines of the silky white powder on the back of a plastic cassette tape cover. Fifteen hundred dollars every month, an abusive boyfriend, a molested child, a lost family, hotels for houses, a ruined leg, a gun to my head, a knife to my butt, a jail cell all my own. Black eyes, bruised days, broken hours. Looking back, it seems strange what I gave up to get my roommate off my back. It only took four seconds. *** In her debut memoir, Andrade tells of her years with cocaine and crystal methamphetamines—using, then selling—until all she had left of the life she wanted was a chalk outline and a pack of cigarettes. This is the story of her use and recovery, of the people who frustrated and inspired her, of her decision to leave the drug world. It is the story of her slow, often unsteady walk home.

30 review for Four Seconds: A Memoir

  1. 4 out of 5

    David Beal

    Four Seconds - A Book Review By David Beal, Librarian East Hartford Public Library When you work in a Public Library, a lot of books pass through your hands. If you’re lucky, you’ll find a gem or two that stand out among the plethora of mediocre, somewhat forgettable writings that are printed every year. This memoir is one of those gems. It’s not often that you get second chances. It’s even more uncommon to find a second-chance story that resembles the life lived by Laura Findlay Andrade. It’s rare, Four Seconds - A Book Review By David Beal, Librarian East Hartford Public Library When you work in a Public Library, a lot of books pass through your hands. If you’re lucky, you’ll find a gem or two that stand out among the plethora of mediocre, somewhat forgettable writings that are printed every year. This memoir is one of those gems. It’s not often that you get second chances. It’s even more uncommon to find a second-chance story that resembles the life lived by Laura Findlay Andrade. It’s rare, in that it isn’t often a person lives to tell a story like hers. This is a tale of redemption, finding grace and turning around a life in the face of the self-imposed demons of addiction. The book is a harsh, honest look inside the world of drugs, from both the addict and dealer’s perspective. The author takes you along for the ride to experience the chaos and despair of a woman facing a slow burn to the core. Laura’s “core”, however, is clearly stronger than most. Throughout the book, she navigates abusive relationships, prison, drug-addled friendships and the shady (sometimes downright dangerous) characters of the drug world. As you follow her through the journey from young woman to addict to seasoned criminal, you can’t help but feel simultaneous pity and fondness for a woman who is seemingly always spiraling, crashing and carrying on with the perpetual determination to pull herself out of a life that is locked in the deep mire of addiction and crime. Her motivation to reform is her daughter Phoebe, whom she loves with all her heart, yet struggles to be a “mom” to - the lure of drugs & money constantly pulling her in the wrong direction. Fighting to put her life in order and winning back custody of Phoebe becomes a battle that she’s determined to win. Winning her well-being and health back becomes a conflict requiring some divine intervention. If you’ve ever had a loved one with addiction, or you’ve fought with addiction yourself, this book is for you. If you have children (grown or otherwise) that you love with all of your soul, this book will touch your heart. If you enjoy rooting for the lovable, flawed antihero, this book might be a perfect Winter read.

  2. 5 out of 5

    Jaime

    This was a beautifully written, true story of a woman who is honest and real. Laura's courage in sharing her trials, her challenges, her faith journey inspired me to judge less, serve more, and forgive myself more often. And it reminded me that no one can ever fall so far that the grace of God cannot reach us. I highly recommend this book! This was a beautifully written, true story of a woman who is honest and real. Laura's courage in sharing her trials, her challenges, her faith journey inspired me to judge less, serve more, and forgive myself more often. And it reminded me that no one can ever fall so far that the grace of God cannot reach us. I highly recommend this book!

  3. 5 out of 5

    Brooke

    Four Seconds is everything I could want in a book. I cried, I laughed, but at the end I realized it had offered me two precious things: hope and humility. Laura Andrade and I have lived drastically different lives- I have never once tried drugs and I never plan to. But to read a memoir about a woman who hit absolute rock bottom, and then not only became free from every single last one of her vicious substances, but also found peace and happiness along the way. Sometimes it's hard to believe that Four Seconds is everything I could want in a book. I cried, I laughed, but at the end I realized it had offered me two precious things: hope and humility. Laura Andrade and I have lived drastically different lives- I have never once tried drugs and I never plan to. But to read a memoir about a woman who hit absolute rock bottom, and then not only became free from every single last one of her vicious substances, but also found peace and happiness along the way. Sometimes it's hard to believe that people can change, let alone myself... and yet, Andrade did. She wasn't "fixed", but rather built up anew from the ashes of her life. A message both poignant and full of hope. While reading this book, I was continually nudged with the impression that memoirs such as hers are truly gifts. Andrade has opened herself up to bear all of the pain and sweetness in her life, and I find both her story and her willingness to be vulnerable so incredibly humbling. When I first met Andrade, my mother mentioned offhandedly that she was once a drug dealer. "Cool..." I had thought. But reading this memoir was a striking reminder that the people we may only know partially are full of depth that we know not of. All around us are people with lush stories, full of hope and dreams and anguish... only some of us get the chance to share it to the world. I also have to highlight the skill with which Jean Knight Pace was able to articulate Andrade's experiences. The writing and flow was beautiful, and yet still preserved Andrade's voice wonderfully. I have read some of her other books, and they are just as well written. This book is a gift, and for that I am truly thankful to have picked it up.

  4. 4 out of 5

    Laura Andrade

    Incredible! When I read this book I was absolutely in aww of everything I’ve Lived through and I’m still alive! My name is Laura and I’m very very grateful for everybody reading my book and being inspired by it !!!!Thank you so so much !!!I’m even being inspired by it ha ha Ha I can’t believe I’m still alive but there was is a plan for me all along I realize that now! I truly wanted to write this book so I could give Hope to adults that have a child struggling with addiction. If I made it out of Incredible! When I read this book I was absolutely in aww of everything I’ve Lived through and I’m still alive! My name is Laura and I’m very very grateful for everybody reading my book and being inspired by it !!!!Thank you so so much !!!I’m even being inspired by it ha ha Ha I can’t believe I’m still alive but there was is a plan for me all along I realize that now! I truly wanted to write this book so I could give Hope to adults that have a child struggling with addiction. If I made it out of darkness there is hope for their child!!! I wish my parents would I had a book like this to reflect when I was a drug addict it would’ve been very helpful then and given them hope and that’s what I want! Good luck to everyone out there I love you so much! I’ve never ever been happier in my entire life than I am at this moment!😘😇

  5. 5 out of 5

    blondie

    Raw and Real First of all this book was very well written. I can't say as I relate to her because I don't but she definitely told us what it's like to go to hell and back more than once. I also got to say then I particularly care for her. She made all these choices herself nobody forced her to do anything that she didn't want to. I am glad that she finally turned her life around. And I wish her all the best. Raw and Real First of all this book was very well written. I can't say as I relate to her because I don't but she definitely told us what it's like to go to hell and back more than once. I also got to say then I particularly care for her. She made all these choices herself nobody forced her to do anything that she didn't want to. I am glad that she finally turned her life around. And I wish her all the best.

  6. 5 out of 5

    Chris Bradshaw

    I related to this story clean & gonna stay I enjoy hearing others insanity stories about addiction keeps me clean one more day...😇 best wishes for you guys... Amen

  7. 4 out of 5

    Ron

    I’m editing my own review. A friend loaned me their copy of Four Seconds. She knows I’m a huge fan of a person overcoming seemingly insurmountable odds such as Marcus Luttrell of Lone Survivor. I’m a fan of inner strength and determination to win no matter what it takes. I began reading this book when something told me to try my first audio book. I put down the paperback, ordered the audio book which I believe gives an entirely different perspective on this story of sheer courage. I’m pretty sure t I’m editing my own review. A friend loaned me their copy of Four Seconds. She knows I’m a huge fan of a person overcoming seemingly insurmountable odds such as Marcus Luttrell of Lone Survivor. I’m a fan of inner strength and determination to win no matter what it takes. I began reading this book when something told me to try my first audio book. I put down the paperback, ordered the audio book which I believe gives an entirely different perspective on this story of sheer courage. I’m pretty sure the narrator is not the real Laura. But she brings Laura’s story to life with emotion and realism that’s not possible just reading the written word. This is not a fun book. I believe it is a very necessary book. I believe every parent, especially parents of daughters, I have four daughters, should read this book and pass it to their children. Choices. Living life is all about choices. As a parent you can advise your children as Laura’s dad did when he made her promise not to ever use drugs. But our children will live their own lives, make their own choices. For some of our children they will choose the right friends, the right school, the right relationship, the right job. For others those choices can very easily be a death sentence. Laura’s Four Seconds choice would lead her on a trip that can only be described as a very real hell. Laura’s choice of a boyfriend nearly cost her life. Choosing to give him a second chance very nearly ended Laura’s life. How many women believe their significant other when they say “I’ll never do that again”? Much like one of my personal heroes Marcus Luttrell The Lone Survivor, Laura survived her abusive boyfriend. But the real hell still lay before Laura as she became addicted to cocaine, crystal meth, and very nearly heroin. I don’t want to give away all the gut wrenching journey through hell that Laura conquered. You need to read or better yet listen to her story. Feel her pain. Get to know her courage, her strength. I believe God has a plan for each of us. I also believe God works in very different ways. Laura made a “Four Second” choice that very nearly destroyed her. God’s love stayed with Laura all through her walk through hell. God gave Laura the love that only a mother has for her child. Through Laura’s darkest moments her love for her daughter Phoebe was her guiding light to the other side. As I said earlier this is not a fun book. It is a story of strength, courage, determination and God’s love. This is a journey, a story of inspiration. A story of survival. I hope Laura reads this review and knows how proud I am of her. How inspired I am by her story. How much I wish her every possible happiness in this world. God knows she deserves it.

  8. 5 out of 5

    Pam

    This was an interesting read. Laura is proof of who the criminal system favors. Her jail sentences were light and she went to jail and was released so many times and still given a long period of time to get her life together and obtain custody of her daughter again. People of other demographics are not given the same amount of time and opportunity. The last couple of chapters were really cliche of how her life changed once she found God yet she did not address reconciliation with Phoebe's dad an This was an interesting read. Laura is proof of who the criminal system favors. Her jail sentences were light and she went to jail and was released so many times and still given a long period of time to get her life together and obtain custody of her daughter again. People of other demographics are not given the same amount of time and opportunity. The last couple of chapters were really cliche of how her life changed once she found God yet she did not address reconciliation with Phoebe's dad and family. She completely stopped talking about Annie and Miguel's other kids. Were there reconciliations in those relationships also? There were too many footnotes with random comments that could have been incorporated within the writing. Overall, it was nice to read that Laura at the end of the memoir is different than the one from the beginning.

  9. 4 out of 5

    Eleni Jane

    This is hands down the best book I have ever read. The life that Laura led- was one of the hardest journeys I have ever heard. But all the while she was pushed by her pride and determination to be independent. She is an absolute inspiration. At times this novel was so difficult to read that I had to set the book down for the night. That was the only thing that could have kept me from absolutely devouring it- dying to know how she got out of each situation and how god helped her along the way. Th This is hands down the best book I have ever read. The life that Laura led- was one of the hardest journeys I have ever heard. But all the while she was pushed by her pride and determination to be independent. She is an absolute inspiration. At times this novel was so difficult to read that I had to set the book down for the night. That was the only thing that could have kept me from absolutely devouring it- dying to know how she got out of each situation and how god helped her along the way. The novel flows wonderfully and is an absolute whirlwind- I can only begin to imagine how it must have felt to be in the middle of it. 10/10- I will forever recommend this amazing and raw memoir.

  10. 5 out of 5

    Gel Rasper

    A super fast read and well written, this book had me from the first page. It was good, but not necessarily one I’d recommend and I won’t read it again. It was too painful for me to read about her and her daughter and sad to see her justifying some of the things that happened - like leaving her daughter with her drug addicted friends, but saying that she always left her with responsible people. Through her story, it was easy to see why people get trapped in drugs and the lifestyle that comes alon A super fast read and well written, this book had me from the first page. It was good, but not necessarily one I’d recommend and I won’t read it again. It was too painful for me to read about her and her daughter and sad to see her justifying some of the things that happened - like leaving her daughter with her drug addicted friends, but saying that she always left her with responsible people. Through her story, it was easy to see why people get trapped in drugs and the lifestyle that comes along with it, which was enlightening for me, and I do think it’s remarkable how honest she was about her story.

  11. 4 out of 5

    Marissa Sneed

    I finished this book in three days. I couldn’t put it down. I have an addict in my family and this book has restored the hope that I thought I had lost!!! I felt an overwhelming sense of astonishment for the author as she navigated through the most challenging obstacles of her life, and came out on top. It’s refreshing to have someone whose been to hell and back share every part of that journey so openly.

  12. 5 out of 5

    Belinda Lams

    This powerful story continually teaches that one little (seemingly innocuous) decision, can slide a person into hell very quickly. The journey of Laura's decent into the world of addiction and its dark underbelly is also her about her courageous decision to ascend to the world of redemption and healing. It is inspiring, beautifully written, and a great reminder that our choices truly matter. Highly recommend. This powerful story continually teaches that one little (seemingly innocuous) decision, can slide a person into hell very quickly. The journey of Laura's decent into the world of addiction and its dark underbelly is also her about her courageous decision to ascend to the world of redemption and healing. It is inspiring, beautifully written, and a great reminder that our choices truly matter. Highly recommend.

  13. 4 out of 5

    Rhiannon Rabby

    Laura’s memoir was both shocking and inspiring. It was excellent! While I generally do not care to read about religion, I’m glad she found a positive path to follow that helped to increase her quality of life & relationships with her loved ones. My only complaints are regarding the footnotes: The chapters are long, so it’s easy to forget what some of the footnotes are referring to. I certainly couldn’t be bothered to look back and match them up with the corresponding part of the story.

  14. 4 out of 5

    Elisabeth Brookshire

    Beautiful woman, beautiful book Wow, this book was awesome. I had to finish it in one day. What an amazing story that everyone should read. It's almost unbelievable how Laura's life changed after what she went through and who she was in her early years. I can't express this enough but if you like "addiction" memoirs then you have got to read this! A triumph. Beautiful woman, beautiful book Wow, this book was awesome. I had to finish it in one day. What an amazing story that everyone should read. It's almost unbelievable how Laura's life changed after what she went through and who she was in her early years. I can't express this enough but if you like "addiction" memoirs then you have got to read this! A triumph.

  15. 4 out of 5

    Margaret Collins

    Loved this book! It was nearly impossible to put down! Couldn't wait to find out what was going to happen next. This book could save a person from going down the wrong road. (How quickly that can happen!) It also brings hope for the future to those that have already started heading in the wrong direction. It's never too late to get on the right path. Well worth the read. Loved this book! It was nearly impossible to put down! Couldn't wait to find out what was going to happen next. This book could save a person from going down the wrong road. (How quickly that can happen!) It also brings hope for the future to those that have already started heading in the wrong direction. It's never too late to get on the right path. Well worth the read.

  16. 4 out of 5

    Lindsay Richardson

    Incredibly involved memoir. Places you in the heart of a trapt single mother dealing with bad choices and worse situations. When you think it cant get worse it does and when you thing there is no chance of light for her it appears. Strength and hope and real sadness make this a story you will never forget.

  17. 4 out of 5

    marsha stetler

    Four seconds is a lifetime! For anyone in addiction or like me, a granddaughter in addiction, this is a true story so many of our addicts live. The pain of addiction to all is a hole so very difficult to escape! So few, sadly enough make it! Just goes to show us all the power of our Holy Spirit! A difficult book to read, but a wonderful ending to a real life struggle!

  18. 5 out of 5

    Lisa

    Interesting (and redemptive) story and very good ability to process her past, but unfortunately I got more tired of the writing style as it went on. Especially near the end, she uses an extreme amount of endnotes just to insert trivial comments. At the beginning, they were actual useful explanations. Near the end, I regretted bothering to click on notes.

  19. 5 out of 5

    Anna-Lisa

    Deeply moving I was not expecting to love this book as much as I did. I was funny, heartfelt, and shocking at times, and I just could not put it down. I am so thankful for the love and hope I felt emanating from this memoir, which recognizes the capacity for human growth and celebrates the divine in all of us.

  20. 5 out of 5

    Sarah Dzikowicz

    I found Laura’s book to be well written and a page turner. It was hard to put it down without wondering what was going to happen next in her life. I can only wonder how many families can relate to much of what happened during her years of using drugs. It was nice to know that her life has changed for the better and as she seems to be a person who has much love to give to others.

  21. 4 out of 5

    marsha merritt

    All is not lost Many reasons led me to read this book. I have been a enabler for most of my adult life. I quit religion but believe in God. I married the same drug addict twice and my only son followed down that path. I wanted help and hope and found both in the pages.

  22. 5 out of 5

    Olivia

    LOVED THIS BOOK!!! I couldn’t put it down. The author does an excellent job of putting her story into easy to understand terms and really makes the reader feel like they were there! I recommend it to everyone. Loved it!!

  23. 4 out of 5

    Melissa Brengel

    Story of survival, recovery and growth From the moment you begin reading this book you are transported into the world of the author and her heartbreaking life filled with addiction and her right to get clean and find peace with her demons.

  24. 4 out of 5

    Dinah

    Funny, down to earth and inspiring! Loved the way the author wrote it,as if she was having a conversation with the reader, taking time to explain everything in the footnotes. Such an encouraging story!

  25. 5 out of 5

    Sunshine Hoover

    Beautiful, heartwarming story! This was such an amazing journey to read. I love the fact that you didn't just end the story with you being clean from drugs, but went on to explain how you completely changed your life! Such a poignant story to read! I'm so proud of you! Beautiful, heartwarming story! This was such an amazing journey to read. I love the fact that you didn't just end the story with you being clean from drugs, but went on to explain how you completely changed your life! Such a poignant story to read! I'm so proud of you!

  26. 5 out of 5

    Joan Cooper

    Faith Moves Mountains I loved this book because of the truth. Someone who has reached rock bottom and took forgiveness from the Lord. Miracles happen every day.

  27. 4 out of 5

    Carly Chodkiewicz

    A phenomenal and emotional story that is so beautifully written. Laura Andrade is incredibly talented.

  28. 4 out of 5

    Dalana Reeves Parks

    People do change Great testimony I enjoyed the book very much it has kept me intrigued for days proud of you Laura !!!

  29. 4 out of 5

    Ann

    Hope This story gives me hope for my daughter to stay out of that deep hole called drug addiction and to rebuild her life.

  30. 5 out of 5

    Kimberly Summers

    I fell into this book from the start. Good, cheeky writing. Intense drug theme with a thoughtful ending.

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